Time flies people change

Because of this sleepless and lonely night, I recalled this blog space out of a sudden.
Yea, it's been a while. A year plus since I last blogged.

Bunch of things happened in this long long period where I went missing( blogging here).
My life started to get real busy until I don't have time, or accurately, mood, to write here.
I'd been busy looking for money, work and work and work as to have a better life, to shop more, to travel more. There and then, I started to change.

I'm no longer the old me. I became more demanding, materialistic, selfish, careless, lonely.....

Yes, I have changed.

I have changed for some reason. But I'm not ready yet to face the consequences. Simply because I'm still loving you.

I am afraid. I don't want this to happen. I hope there are ways to solve this shit. And I swear, you're the man that I love with all my heart and soul. Everyone can see that we had been through up and downs. I prayed to God if there's any miracle for this relationship. Cause I know that I will never find a man like you, who loved me so hard, who gave me his everything :'(

I always hope that you're the first and last of my life. But thing is changing now. I'm afraid that the man that you loved the most in your life, wouldn't be the one who walk with you till the end of the life. It's sad I know. Barely cry. (I know I have cried alots)

Looking forward to changes. A changes that hurt nobody especially You.

I love you.