WHY_____??

i luv him..for real...
luv him so much...
12/8/09...ysterday...
was our anniversary of 1 year...
it should be happy...
should full of happiness...

BUT...
something unexpected happenend..
mayb this is our luck...
finally my dad discovered..
we get into trouble...

it is so cruel for me..
i am vry2 sad now...
the following day..
i dunno what should i do...
i hate...
i hate y all these happened on me...
i hate y can't be understand...

i hv lost my motivation to study..
SPM now is nothing to me...
i'm heartbroken...

maybe this is my fate...
TAKDIR...
i am vry weak now..
my tears dry..

i hv thought of suicide..
but i was too tired cuz of crying..
i fall asleep...
i know it's vry stupid to do so..
finally i canceled...
cuz i don't want to loss all my dreams...
don't want to leave my hani..
and leave the world so easily..

my plan to marry v him..
to hv our sweet family..
to hv a good career v good income..
to make everyone happy including my family n he's..

i wan all these come true..
every test i hv encountered now i should patience..
to complete my journey...my life...

hope god bless my hani always safe...
may god bless our luv...

i love u hani...
for forever...